- I want to start eating breakfast. There are a million reasons why, and the only reason I don't is because I'm lazy and I sleep in too close to time to leave.
- I want to stick to my diet better. This is mostly self-motivated and I haven't done very well lately.
- I want to spend more time with friends that I don't spend much time with. This is made more difficult by everyone's hectic schedules this close to finals and the holidays, but I might have more luck with this one next semester.
- I want to paint more. Again, I think I'll have more luck with this one next semester, and I know that I'll be doing some of this over Christmas break.
- I want to really really enjoy my last Christmas break. This shouldn't be too hard but I'm going to have to try really hard not to dwell on the sad parts.
- I want to cook more. This is way more fun when done with someone... but I'm trying to enjoy more things by myself.
- I want to make a few New Year resolutions that I actually keep. We'll see how that goes...
- I want to start writing again. This blog is entertaining, but its nowhere near the caliber of written genius I used to crank out.
- I want to be more informed on local and national politics. I don't want the next time I vote to be the presidential election in 2012.
- I want to do more community service. I've gotten out of the habit and its not something I want to do just because its required for my classes or my club.
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Tis The Season For Change
I've been contemplating several changes I'd like to make to my life, so I thought I'd list them out for two reasons: first, making a list of things makes me more apt to do them. Second, sharing the list gives the reader the chance to encourage me in these endeavors. And I usually need all the encouragement I can get.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Sixteen Things About Me
i was prompted to write this for a friend on facebook, so i thought i may as well share it with the blogspot community. enjoy:
write a note with sixteen random things, shortcomings, facts, habits, strengths, or goals you have.
1. i am an extremely picky eater. absolutely no peppers, no onions, no avocados, no vinegar, no spinach, no salad, no broccoli, no salad, no mustard, and no squash... just to name a few.
2. i am extremely 'type A'. i keep a very detailed calendar, and i hang my tshirts in rainbow order in my closet. i also alphabetize my movies and keep an excel spreadsheet list of them detailing the name of the movie, the format its in, the genre it falls into, and what notable actors/actresses are in each one. now that i think about it, some of the things i do make me sound borderline OCD...
3. i never set just one alarm, i have to set a series of them in order to get out of bed, and that doesn't always work. i never get up to the first alarm i set, i always push snooze at least 5 times. the best way for me to get up on time is to have someone wake me up. repeatedly.
4. i feel more vulnerable right now than i have in my entire life, and i feel like this is the time i should be strong. which makes me feel like a failure. which makes me feel pathetic.
5. i have decided to try my hardest to see life through positive eyes. i want to choose to live empowered, take the high road, and take risks in my life. i want to live a life others envy.
6. i am hopelessly addicted to my movie collection... thus far, i own 311 movies, counting each volume of "tv on dvd" as one movie. i generally watch at least one movie or tv episode per day, most of the time using it as background noise whilst i study or do creative things.
7. i miss ireland more than i thought possible. i spent a month there this summer and every bone in my body is aching to go back. in my meager travels to different places in the states, i've come to realize that each place is pretty much the same as the rest of them - what makes them really different is the people who live there and the way they treat you and each other. and ireland was different. i still miss it.
8. i love to paint, even though i'm not the best at it - it brings me real joy. and not many things do these days.
9. i am extremely self-conscious and reliant on people for my validation. i'm working on changing this, but its something i've always struggled with.
10. i often feel "too radical" for my more conservative friends and family when i just feel like i'm being progressive, and "too goody goody" for my more liberal friends when i just feel like i'm being moral... it makes me wonder how people classify me in their minds.
11. i don't dye my hair blue for anyone but myself, and i'm tired of people insinuating that i do. its MY hair, MY favorite color, MY choice. sorry... but its not for you.
12. i've recently begun to do more girly glamour rituals than i used to... such as paint my toenails, actually buy makeup, and put gel in my hair. its a weird concept to me, but its been an interesting change in my life. plus, i'm beginning to actually like the color pink, instead of just tolerating it.
13. i really really love my dog. Norah is the cutest, funniest, politest, most amusing dog i've ever been around. she's my first dog, and she's never disappointed me. sure, she's had her make-a-kleenex-box-explode-all-over-the-living-room moments, but what dog hasn't?? she's smart and she's super excited to see me every single time i come home. who could ask for more??
14. i'm somewhat of an insomniac, which can be directly observed by viewing the time this note was posted. its been awhile since i actually felt perky and energetic.
15. i am getting exceedingly anxious about whether or not my artwork is good enough to get me anywhere in life. with graduation approaching, this fear/worry/stress compounds every day. this is significantly hindering my ability to think positive, as is this:
16. i'm beginning to doubt that there is any one man in this world who can not only love me for who i am, truly enjoy spending time with me, and desire to spend the rest of his life with me... but can also tolerate all my crazy, somewhat detailed in the previous 15 tiny insights into who i am.
please remember after reading - i'm still the friend you thought you knew... not the crazy person described above.
write a note with sixteen random things, shortcomings, facts, habits, strengths, or goals you have.
1. i am an extremely picky eater. absolutely no peppers, no onions, no avocados, no vinegar, no spinach, no salad, no broccoli, no salad, no mustard, and no squash... just to name a few.
2. i am extremely 'type A'. i keep a very detailed calendar, and i hang my tshirts in rainbow order in my closet. i also alphabetize my movies and keep an excel spreadsheet list of them detailing the name of the movie, the format its in, the genre it falls into, and what notable actors/actresses are in each one. now that i think about it, some of the things i do make me sound borderline OCD...
3. i never set just one alarm, i have to set a series of them in order to get out of bed, and that doesn't always work. i never get up to the first alarm i set, i always push snooze at least 5 times. the best way for me to get up on time is to have someone wake me up. repeatedly.
4. i feel more vulnerable right now than i have in my entire life, and i feel like this is the time i should be strong. which makes me feel like a failure. which makes me feel pathetic.
5. i have decided to try my hardest to see life through positive eyes. i want to choose to live empowered, take the high road, and take risks in my life. i want to live a life others envy.
6. i am hopelessly addicted to my movie collection... thus far, i own 311 movies, counting each volume of "tv on dvd" as one movie. i generally watch at least one movie or tv episode per day, most of the time using it as background noise whilst i study or do creative things.
7. i miss ireland more than i thought possible. i spent a month there this summer and every bone in my body is aching to go back. in my meager travels to different places in the states, i've come to realize that each place is pretty much the same as the rest of them - what makes them really different is the people who live there and the way they treat you and each other. and ireland was different. i still miss it.
8. i love to paint, even though i'm not the best at it - it brings me real joy. and not many things do these days.
9. i am extremely self-conscious and reliant on people for my validation. i'm working on changing this, but its something i've always struggled with.
10. i often feel "too radical" for my more conservative friends and family when i just feel like i'm being progressive, and "too goody goody" for my more liberal friends when i just feel like i'm being moral... it makes me wonder how people classify me in their minds.
11. i don't dye my hair blue for anyone but myself, and i'm tired of people insinuating that i do. its MY hair, MY favorite color, MY choice. sorry... but its not for you.
12. i've recently begun to do more girly glamour rituals than i used to... such as paint my toenails, actually buy makeup, and put gel in my hair. its a weird concept to me, but its been an interesting change in my life. plus, i'm beginning to actually like the color pink, instead of just tolerating it.
13. i really really love my dog. Norah is the cutest, funniest, politest, most amusing dog i've ever been around. she's my first dog, and she's never disappointed me. sure, she's had her make-a-kleenex-box-explode-all-over-the-living-room moments, but what dog hasn't?? she's smart and she's super excited to see me every single time i come home. who could ask for more??
14. i'm somewhat of an insomniac, which can be directly observed by viewing the time this note was posted. its been awhile since i actually felt perky and energetic.
15. i am getting exceedingly anxious about whether or not my artwork is good enough to get me anywhere in life. with graduation approaching, this fear/worry/stress compounds every day. this is significantly hindering my ability to think positive, as is this:
16. i'm beginning to doubt that there is any one man in this world who can not only love me for who i am, truly enjoy spending time with me, and desire to spend the rest of his life with me... but can also tolerate all my crazy, somewhat detailed in the previous 15 tiny insights into who i am.
please remember after reading - i'm still the friend you thought you knew... not the crazy person described above.
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